I am done with denial. I have to move and there is no choice. I am packing my heart out and purging along with it. I am trying to teach Aidan this art, but when it comes to toys he has a hard time. LOL.
I am nervous about living in an apartment. I have not lived in one since 1992. I am looking at the positives as much as possible. No yard work, call for exterminating and maintenance as needed, smaller space to clean. ONE story!
Monday, April 5, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
How do you find the time?
I am interested in finding the time to go back to school for my N.P. I have started a masters program before and had a lot of difficulty with it. Working 40-50 hours a week, being a mom, caring for a house and relatives...how do you find the time? I don't watch much TV and have very few down-time activities....How do you do it? I really want to know. Money is a concern, but not nearly as much as finding the time to do the work involved with school.
Suggestions are welcome!
Suggestions are welcome!
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Moving and changing
I am in the midst of packing up to move. I was successful in finding a mover (Yay!) and now I am trying to pack as much as possible to reduce the costs. I have never moved a house/apartment all by myself and it is interesting. I have surges of motivation and then I get overwhelmed. Aidan seems to remember that we are moving but I don't think it's really real to him yet. For that matter, I don't think it's real to me either.
I honestly am struggling with the fact that I am losing my home. I know I cannot take care of this home by myself. I do not like 2 story houses to live in! The yard is much too big and there are too many bathrooms. This is a house for a family of more than 2! The struggle is that my life has changed so drastically and most of it has been not been of my choosing. I never planned on being a single mom. I never planned on losing all the things I have worked so hard for.
I am trying so hard to look at the bright side of things, but right now most things are just a huge hassle. I jokingly say that I am going through an existential crisis, but it really isn't a joke. I am! The only thing in my life I am not questioning is being a mother to Aidan. It is the one constant that is holding it all (me) together.
I honestly am struggling with the fact that I am losing my home. I know I cannot take care of this home by myself. I do not like 2 story houses to live in! The yard is much too big and there are too many bathrooms. This is a house for a family of more than 2! The struggle is that my life has changed so drastically and most of it has been not been of my choosing. I never planned on being a single mom. I never planned on losing all the things I have worked so hard for.
I am trying so hard to look at the bright side of things, but right now most things are just a huge hassle. I jokingly say that I am going through an existential crisis, but it really isn't a joke. I am! The only thing in my life I am not questioning is being a mother to Aidan. It is the one constant that is holding it all (me) together.
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