I am in the midst of packing up to move. I was successful in finding a mover (Yay!) and now I am trying to pack as much as possible to reduce the costs. I have never moved a house/apartment all by myself and it is interesting. I have surges of motivation and then I get overwhelmed. Aidan seems to remember that we are moving but I don't think it's really real to him yet. For that matter, I don't think it's real to me either.
I honestly am struggling with the fact that I am losing my home. I know I cannot take care of this home by myself. I do not like 2 story houses to live in! The yard is much too big and there are too many bathrooms. This is a house for a family of more than 2! The struggle is that my life has changed so drastically and most of it has been not been of my choosing. I never planned on being a single mom. I never planned on losing all the things I have worked so hard for.
I am trying so hard to look at the bright side of things, but right now most things are just a huge hassle. I jokingly say that I am going through an existential crisis, but it really isn't a joke. I am! The only thing in my life I am not questioning is being a mother to Aidan. It is the one constant that is holding it all (me) together.
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